A Sweet Whisper

Although our move has been nothing short of God inspired and God ordained we are still struggling with adjusting to Colorado. Everything is so different and yet so the same. These past few months I have been exhausted, mentally, physically and spiritually. I feel like I haven’t had the energy or the desire even to pray. I’ve thought to myself, God, where are you? Why are we here? What is our purpose?

It’s not that I am particularly angry with God, it’s that I am confused. We moved here with such high hopes. Our hopes and dreams, and I am quickly reminded that His ways are not our ways. But God has been so faithful to us, even when we are so faithless.

I have been struggling with being a stranger amongst strangers. Before we moved I liked the idea of “starting fresh”,  getting to know new and exciting people. Although, I have found  it to be very exhausting. I feel so impersonal and for a bit I lost the desire to even reach out and make friends. I felt like there was no point in making friends and that I could just “do life” by myself with my husband and our kids. I know my heart was shut off from the Lord, like a little wall building up, brick by brick. I have been praying for him to open it again and to reveal himself to me. Once again, he has. It’s a humbling experience to have the God of the universe answer a prayer for you. A need ever so sweetly fulfilled.

I opened my bible one morning this past week to 1 Kings 19, I think I should have been reading somewhere else on my read through the bible in a year app but it glitched and lead me here and with out any thought I very numbly started to read God’s word.

Oh my, how did it speak to my heart.  After being utterly exhausted from killing Jezebel’s profits of Baal. Elijah sat down and prayed to God that he might die. He was extremely discouraged, fatigued and was with out hope. He layed down and slept until an angel of the Lord woke him up and fed him. He layed down again, still exhausted and slept some more. The angel again awoke  Elijah, fed him and told him that he must travel to mount Sinai.

It was there on the mountain of God, that the Lord revealed himself to Elijah. It was God who showed Elijah, a distressed, lonely and broken man, his power and majesty. He caused a mighty windstorm, a earthquake and a fire but God was not present in those storms. He made himself known to Elijah in the form of a gentle whisper and reminded him to keep on keep’n on. That God was with him.

I find it  ironic (actually, its not irony, its a God thing) that I came across this scripture at this time. For one, the message of Elijah’s life was a big inspiration and source of encouragement for our move. Second, I was feeling exhausted and broken. Questioning if we made the right decision. I found the answer in my NLT parallel study bible, the notes reference to verse 19:3 and it says,

“Elijah experienced the depths of fatigue and discouragement just after his two great spiritual victories: the defeat of the prophets of Baal and the answer to prayer for rain. Often discouragement sets in after great spiritual experiences, especially those requiring physical effort or involving great emotion. To lead him out of depression, God first let him rest and eat. Then God confronted him with the need to return to this mission-to speak God’s words in Israel. Elijah’s battles were not over; he still had work to do. When you feel let down after a great spiritual experience, remember that God’s purpose for your life is not over yet”

It was as if God was whispering to my wounded heart. “Rest, then get up. I still have great things for you, you are still my girl.” Since God revealed those truths to me, miraculous things have been happening in the coolest, most strangest ways. I can feel my strength rising again, my heart longing to be in His presence. I am so thankful to have such a personal God, who knows me and exactly what I need.

“You go before me and follow me.
    You place your hand of blessing on my head.” -Psalm 139:5

“…And when I wake up, you are still with me!” -Psalm 139:18

 

Do you ever feel discouraged? Like God is not present in your life,  are you wondering where he is and how you fit in to this life? Rest, my sweet friend, and know that God is with you. You need only to be still and listen to that sweet whisper;

“For the LORD your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” -Zephaniah 3:17

 

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Settling In

It has been a whirlwind of a summer, and yet with each passing day it seemed as if it crawled by. God took our little family of four (six, if you include our two dogs) and moved us from Lewisberry Pennsylvania to Colorado Springs, Colorado. Although, technically we are residing in Fountain.

I can’t even begin to explain the way God has provided for us in this move, the extra money that came in just in the nick of time. How our home was given three full price offers (two of which over asking price) while only being on the market for three days.The way that I was able to hop the same flight as my brother’s girlfriend traveling to college (she had her flight booked since May). Her help was immensely appreciated and I don’t think I could have survived that 9pm flight out to Denver with out her. Lastly, how we pretty much rented a house sight unseen and that it meets all of our needs (not necessarily all of our wants).

Although God paved the way it doesn’t mean that our road here was not rocky and with out fault. At times, tensions were high between Brantz and I. Our emotions very often running on empty. I can tell that my children also suffered from anxiety as we uprooted our lives. We were “homeless” for a little over two months. Thankfully, we had some awesome family who took us in.

My prayer through out this move was that we would go boldly and confidently in the presence of God. That fear, anxiety and regret would not creep in and steal our joy. It was so very hard of letting go of all we had. Family, friends and a home we built together. My heart still tinges with sadness as I think about those we have loved along the way. But before us is a whole new adventure. With unbridled territory to explore and a ground work of kingdom that needs built for God’s glory.

I don’t know our purpose here yet. I know the real purpose is not Jenkins Restorations. Honestly, I’m not sure we may even know while we are still on this earth. But I have seen and experienced God’s goodness and grace.He has tested me, uplifted me and refined me.  While it is a hard place to be, for those who may have never been, it is a place I will never forget and long to be in always. In His presence, in His divine plan and His will.

All too familiar words spoken by the Apostle Paul come to mind,

“I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” -Philippians 4:12 & 13

While I do not consider my circumstances anywhere near the life and trials Paul faced, I do feel blessed to be given a glimpse and greater sense of depth to these verses. God is good, in all things and through all things.

The Ugly Truth.

Anger. An emotion we all have experienced. No, I am not referring to a type of “frustration” either. I am talking about the kind that wells up from somewhere deep with in. The kind that makes your skin crawl and you face flush with heat. The kind of anger that you can feel the tears burning behind your eyes. As pressure builds you can feel yourself coiling up like a Cobra, your mouth teams full of venom, ready to spit, ready to strike.

Selling this house is showing the ugly side of me. The side of me that I stuff down deep and like to pretend doesn’t exist. The stress is exposing my sinful nature. Through out this process I have been praying that God’s thumb print would be all over this move, his presence beyond evident. I have seen His grace and His blessings at work but the second my circumstances get uncomfortable I am so quick to falter.

This past Sunday we had a guest preach about faith in action, he shared from James 3:1-12. He warned against the tongue,  “So also the tongue is a small part of the body, and yet it boasts of great things…” James 3:5. Although it is such a small body part, it is like a bit in a horses mouth, it  guides the entire body. 

Why I did not heed this warning I do not know. Maybe it’s because you really don’t understand these passages until you experience them first hand, you internalize them. Or maybe I am just a fool. These past two days I have been letting my anger burn, never stopping to douse it, only feeding it with fuel.

“…See how great a forest is set aflame by such a small fire! And the tongue is a fire, the very world of iniquity; the tongue is set among our members as that which defiles the entire body, and sets on fire the course of our life, and is set on fire by hell” James 3:5-6.

I could literally feel this situation and my anger consuming me. Thankfully, a dear friend gently spoke truth in my life. God was in this, our house will sell, don’t let Satan steal your joy and ruin your relationships. Instead, focus your mind on what ever is pure, honorable, lovely, and true. (Philippians 4:8)

After our conversion I prayed that God would forgive me and take this anger from me, that I would not listen to the lies I am telling myself. I wanted to stop before more damage was done. Hopefully, I have learned my lesson and will be able to proceed with caution through the rest of this move. But I can not say for sure, as I know I am merely human and I trip over the smallest pebble.On my own I am weak and prone to make mistakes. It is only God working through me that I am able to draw my strength in the face of adversity.

Have you ever faced a similar situation? My prayer for you is that you seek wisdom from God when faced with anger. “But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy” James 3:17.

The little Things…

This past week has been crazy, on Saturday our realtor came over and we signed the papers to put our first home on the market! We spent the rest of the weekend de-cluttering, cleaning and staging our home. The for sale sign is sitting in o
ur yard and today the photographer stopped by to take photos to post on the MLS with our listing. It should be ready by tomorrow, so hopefully we will get a few showings this weekend!

To say we are tired is a huge understatement but God is sustaining and providing for us during this process! There was a moment this weekend when I was feeling so overwhelmed that I just had to stop and pray and ask God for help.I knew there was no way I could do all of what needed done by myself. I prayed, “God, I need help.” A sweet and simple prayer although the words I uttered couldn’t even  describe the landslide of emotions I was going through. But God knew exactly what I was saying and what I needed.

After praying, I went outside to work around the house. I was trying to think of someone I could ask for help, someone available and I wouldn’t be burdening too much. Then a sweet friend of mine, Justine, came to mind. I hope everyone has the opportunity to have a friend like Justine in their life. She is one of those people who is willing to drop everything to help a friend in need. Truly I admire her SO much for her servants heart.

So, I figured I’d give her a call and see if she was free. I went inside to find my phone but upon picking it up I realized I already had a text message from her saying “So, what time do you want me to come over tomorrow to help you?” What?!? I was floored, not just by her amazing generosity but the fact that God had answered my prayer.

Most people would look at this situation and think it was just a coincidence, but this certainly was not. God heard my distress and answered my prayer . The creator of the universe heard my little prayer for help and he answered. On days were I feel insignificant or that God doesn’t care I recall the little blessings in my life and I am reminded how valuable I am in His eyes.

You want to know something? You are valuable too, God cares about you and knows exactly what you need. Even the little things, the simplest of prayers, he hears.

 

 

My Blue-Collar Man

Dirty boots line my back porch along with a beat up red Igloo lunch box. Far too often I have to check his stiff, mud laden jean pockets for wire nuts and electrical tape is always in abundance in our home. (Sorry if I’ve ever gift wrapped your present with it, ha) These items belong to my husband, my blue-collar man.

Each morning he gets up before the sun even dares to break the horizon, eats breakfast, packs his own lunch, and kisses my sleepy self good-bye for the day. Later, in the evening, a low hum of his van rolling down the road lets me know he is home. Our toddler anxiously pulls up a chair to the dining room window to watch him as he pushes open our squeaky gate and travels the path to our house.

You see, this man I love, my best friend, comes home with dirty hands and often needs to wash them before he picks up our babies to kiss them. They are calloused from long days of hard work and are often mended with home made band-aids from electrical tape. He is unlike many men these days. He is coordinated and strong. He carries heavy spools up and down ladders and stands on them while tugging wire through narrow spaces. He uses a drill and a hammer with ease, as if it were an extension of his own body. He endures long work days and it is not unusual for him to have to drive an hour one way to the job site. He is also extremely intelligent, he can look at something and know how to fix it. He reads dizzying, color-coded prints on a daily basis and understands crazy codes.

He works hard each day to provide for our family, so I can stay home with our boys. There are days I feel guilty sending him pictures of the kids at the park because he is not there to make those memories with us. I can’t imagine the immense pressure he feels bearing the financial responsibility and the role as the leader in our home. I thank God each day for him and his sacrifices, for doing a job that flat out sucks some days.

When he comes home wet and cold from the frigid winter I try to have a cup of hot cocoa ready and waiting for him to warm up. In the summer, when he comes home burnt from the sweltering sun, I put aloe on the back of his arms, neck and ears. I do these things because I love him more than words can describe and because he deserves it.

Far to often I feel there is such a struggle between the sexes of who works harder. Yes, my day is exhausting too. I am on call 24/7 and often covered in somebody’s boogers and or bodily fluid. But we are a team, he could not do my job and I could not do his. God knew exactly what he was doing when he created man and woman, how we compliment each other so well. Where I fall short, he picks up.

Now, that’s not to say every day is easy. It’s not. Especially because we are two sinful people who vowed to make a lifetime covenant before God. But my, I would not want to do life with any one else other than my blue-collar man.

He Goes Before Us

What if your husband was offered a great job, but you had to sell your house, leave your family, friends, church and move to a location of their choosing? Would you do it? Does it sound completely absurd?

Well, call us crazy, because that is exactly what we are doing! Before I go into too many details let me rewind a bit and briefly fill you in on the back story. Since this past September we feel God has placed a stirring in our hearts. Although, we were “content” with our life we could feel as if something bigger was on our horizon but, at the time we were not sure what exactly it was. We prayed about it as a couple and separately. The possibility of him applying for a new job had crossed our minds but we really were not ready to move or even consider it. As time went on we were felt pressed and more uncomfortable.

Which, leads us to yesterday, after a few months of the application process and several interviews he was offered a position at a restoration company. And today, my husband gave his two week notice to his current employer. He has invested six years into building his career with his current employer and they had equally invested six years of schooling, training and experience in him. It’s all around bitter sweet.

I know all the previous hype makes us sound like we were planning on jumping ship and moving to Africa, but to us it really feels like we are moving to Africa! We are so totally ordinary home bodies. I mean we BOTH lived at home with our parents until we got married, and after that only moved 15 minutes away from them. To say that we are the safe type of people is putting it lightly, all of our “risks” have been meticulously calculated. Which is why this move is so earth shattering to us.

After much prayer, wrestling with the idea, very long country road drives to talk about it (driving is kinda our thing,or at least my husbands…I actually get car sick pretty easily, haha) we concluded we were going to “make the move” literally, and figuratively. We could have chose a safer option by going through direct hire to a branch office but we chose to do open hire and give it all to God.

Are we nervous? You bet’cha! But I have great faith that God is with us. This is so beyond us, so stretching for us that I don’t see how God can not fill in the gaps and take the reigns. When I imagine our future it is literally a blank slate, but I know our God is faithful to those who love Him. He knows our motives, our hearts and our intentions to serve Him. Which, in and of itself is pretty cool if you ask me.

In the mean time, we are laying it at His feet and praying that He goes before us and prepares the way.